It seems as Christmas approaches us each year, people are decorating, shopping, baking, or just plain getting ready a little earlier then the year before. This year we do already have our Christmas tree and stockings up. I guess I should decorate a little more. It is amazing how I feel I am behind BEFORE Thanksgiving.
I know Christmas this year will not be the easy going one we celebrated last year. A person loved so much by us, is no longer with us. I wish she still was. I still find myself from time to time, wanting to call her up and tell her about things going on with Nathan and I. I am thankful for the amount of time and the relationship I had with her.
Nathan has already bought and given me one of my Christmas presents. A Lenovo Laptop. I love this beast of a computer. It is big, and fast, and has an amazing display. I am so excited I can barley contain my own excitement.
I miss Brodey. I hate that he is gone from me so much. I believe my connection to him is different and stronger then the connection his father has with him. I wish he would stop making everything about money and realize changing the parenting plan would be a good thing for his son. If I never got a dime of child support from him I would not care. I only want what is best for my child and going to good schools, living in a stable home, and not having to deal with transitions is for the best. But despite my good intentions, his father has it out for me.
That is why I am glad Brodey has Nathan. He takes really good care of him. Always buying him things when he needs it. My CS is either; A. always late or B. it’s a low enough amount that does not cover all of Brodey’s needs. But Nathan will always be here to take care of him. I love they relationship they had. Brodey has loved him since the very first time he met him and that makes my heart swell with pride.
